she laughs without fear

Changed November 21, 2012

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Today is one of those emotional days.  Nothing’s really wrong, everything is actually pretty good.  It’s just that kind of day whenever I see something that tugs at the heart strings then I cry like a baby.  I cried pretty much the entire Ellen Show today and then Rascal Flatts sang on The Voice tonight.  Their song “Changed” really speaks to me.

I’ve always recognized the change God has made in my life. I was saved when I was around 14 going on 15.  I didn’t come from a churched family so I pretty much forged my way into making my life look like nothing I’d ever known.  Thankfully God put me on a path that brought me into a church family that utterly changed the course of my history. Being part of the ministry in the very house that brought me up is a very humbling experience. I am a firm believer in the saying, “to whom much is given, much is required.”

So anyway listening to this song made me think of my own life first. Once I was saved, I can’t really say there was a time that I “backslid”.  Not to say there weren’t times when I made mistakes or had dry spells but I never walked away or thought that this life wasn’t for me.  I KNOW I was saved from something. Secondly I think about those that I’ve seen come and go over the years. I’ve seen some people come from some seriously rough situations, then they have a miraculous encounter with God, to then walk away like it never happened. They go back to a life that tears them down, drains them of all their strength, and gives nothing good.  That breaks my heart to see that happen.

It’s easy to say, “well that’s their choice”, life’s all about choices.  Yes, it is but that doesn’t make the fall easier to watch.  Thank God He’s willing to pick us up every single time, right? I pray though, for those that I know, that have made the choice to walk away from a loving God for whatever reason. Sometimes the past eats us up inside, maybe they don’t feel worthy of the love, maybe they simply don’t care to put forth the effort. For whatever reason, I pray that the God who loves them makes it known in such an extravagant way that they can’t help but be changed.

We all could use a little change.  Change our outlook, change our thinking, change our hearts, change our mindsets, and change us from the inside out. Let the river of change flow like a flash flood, sweep away doubt swiftly, cover our hearts with your mercy, help us to know Your grace, most of all Lord, help us to act out of a spirt of worship for our King. Really after all He did for me, changing is the least I can do for Him.



The life and times of a gut spiller… November 9, 2012

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Hello my name is Trish and yes I am a gut spiller.  I am the person you know that says how she feels about everything.  I am a crier and a bit dramatic at times (ask my husband). I literally cannot stand to watch people say goodbye to each other at an airport.  Random people, I don’t know them but I will tear up if I witness that.

Now I try not to shout it all from the rooftops for everyone to hear but if you’re close to me, you know a lot about me. There are times though, that I wish I would’ve not been so open. There are things I’ve shared with people that has then caused them to believe that every future situation I deal with is tainted by my feelings of some past event.  I’d like to believe though that I’ve gained a little wisdom over the years that’s based on reasoning and truth not just perspective based on my experiences only.

Over the years though I’ve realized that talking about stuff is how I cope with stress. Now being married to someone who is the exact opposite of that is at times frustrating.  Not so much any more since we pretty much know what makes each other tick.

I really just think life is too important not to get excited! I live fully, love fiercely, and express my feelings in a way that shows how extravagant God’s love for humanity is. We don’t have time to leave the next generation or this generation, for that matter, wondering about how great our God is, how much we love them, and to not fear leading by example for fear of failure. I’ve seen people in relationships that go by with so many words unsaid and then when it’s over no one knows why. We are all worth fighting for. We need to step outside our quiet box and say what we mean in the spirit of love.  

Over time, I’ve  come to the point where I appreciate that quality in myself and others.  I mean at least you know where you stand with us. You’ll never question where our loyalties lie. Gut spillers unite!!!